I Blame You!

I have the pictures from my thanksgiving trip to Tahoe. Very postcardesque. Must congradulate my skills in subject composition.. haha.. well at least one was really really nice.. next time i shall bring more film and not fall victim to such crappy constraints. Or have a digtal camera by then. Barring sustained bouts of poverty.

Anyway back to the real issue. Why did my arm break. Someone transmitted their suayness to me. A run through all possibilities.

• Reina's Birthday - Grr!, hmm, possible cosmic clash
• Sabrina - Just finished chatting with her
  
• Honghow - Was ferrying his truffles
• Jiawei - Carrying CDs to pass to him
• Chengsi/Jianyuan - Going to their house
• Theo - Passed by his house

All these evil people, I shall dedicate a song to you, by my favourite rapper Tai Mai Shu.

Jack, yee , som
Microphone testing One, two, three
In the place to be
Wassup everybody my name is Tai Mai Shu
And I am going to rapping for you today
Just a little freestyle
But first and for most I would like to thanking
Woadie style, the uncompare, for getting my belt back
And promotion my skills
And in return, I would teach them how to make One Million dollars,
Wow, and when you here you'll be like "Wow, I don't believe"
So simple, no skill involved at all, I could have thought that myself
But you say what, what the hell! I don't believe
Check it out tho
I was cruizing down the street in my impalla
They ask me who the girl I said
That's just my baby ma
I don't give a fuck about the hoe
I sock that bitch in the jaw
Cuz I spy put the nails in after I was suposed to die
Music, give me the dvd's, Break into your houses, steal all of ur keys.
Get your daddy in the peepee. Yeah and u can see see
I run around the corner and laughing hehe hehe
Get your mom in a headlock or a full nelson
Then I let your nigger watch Chinese food and wilson
Then I rape his mama cuz i'm too sexy
Ishan shuka dundooah shit
Back in my apalla sick as '82
Saw my friend young, His first name is eggfoo
Alot of people don't like me but I don't a fuck
Cuz i stole your T.V, an it's in my chewy gum bunker

I wish today was sunday so I could get a cheeseburger for
39 cent at McDonald, Baby!
And I wish it was it was Wednesday so I could get a hamburger for
29 cent at McDonalds, Baby!

I was talkin to this girl (girl)
She said she want my dick, I looking at her eyeball and say u full of bull shit
Then she look at me and she say Fuck you,  I say no's way I have to go to skool

Im an active Chinese boy,(boy) I have a lot to talk about
Try to argue wime I say Get the hell outa o ha oh
I like the Old skool(skool) I like the New skool(skool)
My girlfriend like my name(name) Neha Tai Mai Shu
Let me take a look I like to injure u
What the hell I was bout to say Bok. bok, bok
I take my skills seirous and no it's not for fun
I like to eat Chow fun and how to eat Won ton
Chinese student go to skool, Early in the morning
And I like to play kickball inside the skoolyard
Chinese student do homework and they study real hard
I walk by these good-looking girl
They say you smell like moth balls, balls, balls
(Talkin)
Wow, you do fight good
Yeah wutever dude
Just give me free kMarlbol light
I wish today was sunday so I could get a cheeseburger for
39 cent at McDonalds Babe
And I wish it was it was Wednesday so I could get an hamburger for
29 cent at McDonalds Babe
All my real live Chinese people throw your hand up, throw your hand up, just throw your hand up
All my real live Chinese people throw your hand up, throw your hand up, just throw your hand up
Hong Kong Peopo, throw your hand up, throw dos hand up, just throw your hand up
Chinese peopo, Japanese people... every peopo... throw your hand up!
Re wiya! I am a warrior!

We blasted on them!
I got four fos so you kids don't going
I am real hard! 

Peace outside!

Damn you. You know what I'm saying

Haha.. Download it here: http://www.baduya.com/funny_downloads.htm

Anyway.. mystery for all u med students.. I shall post my Xray tomorrow.. haha.. lets see how much you have learnt.. quiz coming up.

As OCS proclaims, I am always me

I have outdone myself again. Broken medial radius. Sigh. And almost hypothermiated walking back from the stupid hospital in Ashby. Idiots took 4 hours to discover that i had a broken arm and splint it. And I still have to see an ortho tomorrow. So wat did they do? Nothing. What did they find out? That an arm ( which has a 30 degree fold in it) is broken. And did i mention that the hospital sucked. I need to scream at someone but cant think of anyone who wouldnt mind listening. KNNBCCB. !@#$%^&*()_+_)(*&^%$#@!?. Oh OCS is not officer cadet school.

No Respite

I just got back from safeway, well stocked for the next 2 days, one 4 pack of mountain dew amp, a bottle of nodoz. I anticipate taking perhaps 8 over the next 2 days. Hopefully they will still be effective in future. This is ridiculous. Deadlines over the next few days: Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday; lab report, lab report; 105 problem set, 61A midterm; 105 midterm; 20 Problem Set, 20 lab report. I just have to get through this and then a week of relative rest. Only the normal load of one report each for 20 and 105, and one problem set for each too. Assuming no econ problem set is assigned. Sigh, then I can go watch the stanford game in peace. Then Tahoe... OH PLEASE LET ME JUST NOT HAVE TO JUMP OF EVANS BEFORE THANKSGIVING SO I CAN MAYBE LEARN TO SNOWBOARD.

Into the Valley of Death

Tupac said "Wars come and go, but my soldiers stay eternal".
Anyway... this week is going to suck. Cannons to the left of me, Cannons to the right of me, Cannons in front of me, As into the the Valley of Death charges Varun. Ah.. at least on thursday I'll have some good food to look forward to, Eid-Diwali dinner. On that note, last night was quite possibly among the best meals I've ever cooked, peas and 'paneer' pulao, with almonds and raisins, lijjat paapad, boondi raita. No more throughouttheterms after this week. Last one on thursday.. woohoo!! Also.. all those ppl with whom i did crazy dramas back in RI and RJ.. we were geniuses.. you should see the crap that some of these people come up with.... haha

Woo hoo!!

I am in an insanely good mood.... wahahahha... did decently on the econ midterm. I think its because i was watching Emeril.. Emeril always makes me feel good.... hmm.. I want a show on food network too. One day.... Tomorrow is a holiday! Veteran's Day... all those dead soldiers... thank you thank you.... And still they keep dying... Im thinking of this line in a rap by Tupac about soldiers... cant seem to remember.. il put it up next time... Alfred, Lord Tennyson will have to do for now... " Their's not to make reply, Their's not to reason why, Their's but to do and die"

Anyway, I want to go to Yosemite. I am thinking, probably the week I have between end of finals and when i fly home. I'm going anyway, whether people join me or not. I might cycle up if its just me.. hmm... should be fun.. gotta find gear though, a little too cold to rely on my trusty adipose tissue.

I go on Rambling

I ended the last post because I had to go pee. Ok... I love my floor... Next topic...yes ... Ive been going insane... Ive 'discovered' so much music of late.. haha.. im currently listening to Chinese Rapper's Delight by Tai Mai Shu..... wahhaha... hilarious. .. " I wish today was sunday, so I could buy a cheeseburer, at McDonald's, for 29 cents, maybe. " And some deeper stuff... I had all these lyrics in my head from movie soundtracks... from movies that I like.... I remembered this and managed to find it... Mad World by Gary Jules, in Donnie Darko.

All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places
Worn out faces
Bright and early for the daily races
Going no where
Going no where
Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression
No expression
Hide my head I wanna drown my sorrow
No tomorrow
No tomorrow
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I’m dying are the best I’ve ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles it's a very very
Mad world
Mad world
Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy birthday
Happy birthday
And I feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen
Sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me
No one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what’s my lesson
Look right through me
Look right through me
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I’m dying are the best I’ve ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles its a very very
Mad world
Mad world
Enlarging your world
Mad world

I wonder if im violating copywright laws by posting that here.... should check... I doubt Ill get busted for it even if I was in violation, but just out of academic interest...should check anyway. Its something all of us should be clear about but most of us find very murky i think.... this issue of copywright... wait, am I spelling that right?.... hmm... at least thats the impression I get. Now im listening to this very funky techno Wong Fei Hong... haha... Jane thinks I have horrible taste in music... actually shes just the latest person to make that known to me... I guess I listen to too great a variety for any many people to think I have good taste...haha... WTH... at least everyone can enjoy something from my playlist. Mildly fascist German band singing about their desire for large animals, John Williams movie scores, Tamil Movie songs, Michael Jackson, Tupac, Yanni, Zakir Hussain, T N Seshagopalan, Techno, Club Beats, random spoofs, computer game soundtracks.... haha

I am feeling very jaded somehow. I am drifting, journeying without a destination. Just watched Matrix Reloaded a little while back. Must think about some stuff that was said... Ah.. too much blogging for one night... I think the nodoz is keeping me amped. Should take a look at news... lot of shit going on... riots in Paris... I meant to post about some news from last week... especially regarding the death sentence meted out to a Vietnamese drug trafficker carrying into Singapore from Australia. Sigh ... no time.. later maybe.

Submission, and other Random Ramblings

This past weekend has quite possibly been the worst ive had in a long time. Its 4 am right now on monday morning. Let me begin by listing the positives as they stand right now.

• I just completed my project. Woohoo
• I am awake (am I?)
• I am alive (I think I am)

And on the flipside of the coin, (shouldnt both sides be of the same size?)

• I dont know if the damn project works
• I am in an underground dungeon
  
• The damn policeman better catch the thief (otherwise my world is gonna be crime-infested)
• My project partner in all likelihood is freaking out right now
• I must have wakened the ghosts in soda
• My diet of the last 10 hours consists of a power bar (stolen from ernest's bag when he was sleeping, hmm... il buy him another.... i thought it might help keep me awake)
• One nodoz pill courtesy of jaime
• One can of monster regular
• One can of monster assault
• Some pringles
• I just got electrocuted when i plugged my notebook power into the lab switchboard
• The milk I drank yesterday was expired i think

I am mildly delirious now I think. I still have so much shit due this week, and an econ midterm on thursday. I havent blogged in a while because I kinda got bored of it. Yet somehow, whenever deadlines are approaching I get this avalanche of bloggable thoughts and feelings that I somehow dont feel I can replicate at a later time.

I think I have changed immensely over the last two years. Something in me has died; a flame has been extinguished (smothered?). I first realised this over summer i think, but I was too caught up just trying to combat the weirdness to actually think rationally about it. I am just starting to think it through now... Some of it I like, some I dont.

Manchester United just beat Chelsea 1-0 this morning. Glory Glory Man United!! Inida lost to Sri Lanka but a decent performance nonetheless. Sigh... Cal Football... Bears lost to Ducks.... An okay week on that front.

So many people Ive been talking to over the last couple of months (more perhaps), have espoused at great length that their experience todate of college life in US has been unsatisfactory, falling shy of their expectations particularly in the manner of their social interactions. Initially this surprised me, since I had such a wonderful time when I first came here, but gradually it occured to me how fortunate I have been i that sense, and I cultivated a greater appreciation for my floormates from my freshman year. They put up with all my crazy questions like why no team was fielding two quarterbacks at once and why pitchers dont just hit batters more often; and less crazy but more pointed ones regarding various aspects of life here that were so foreign to me having come from Singapore. Haha... I have been labeled hardline conservative and racist, also crazy and dictatorial. And there were all those amusing instances of non-intersecting vocabulary sets. Haha... last week I asked Andrew for a torch so I could read the switch markings on the ELCB when our house power got tripped. He looked at me weirdly and picked up a lighter....Wahahaha... Interpreter Ernest " Flashlight? ". I still remember way back in my first month here, I was walking to the tennis court with Steve and Ernest, and he asked me about some class I wass taking. " Its mildly taxing"... Steve " Woah, taxing, thats the first time I heard that from someone not learing SAT wordlist"...haha. And all those long discussions with Jaime about the religion, politics, history and culture. Trying to draw Adriel into some sort of contradiciton about the bible. Playing Tekken and Burnout on Patrick and Justin's PS2s. And comparing minorities with Ernest. Realising that Korean and Tamil are weirdly similar. Looking at the sunset from Michelle/Megha/Erin's room. Arguing with Megha about the stupidest stuff. Sparring with Alex. Ah... I dont suppose any of them read my blog... I can so see it ... haha Jaime "Reading blogs? Gay. Daamn Varun.... you read blogs.... waaat? ... u have a blog.... daaamn ... your gay" Ah... that reminds.... haha... the insane homophobia of my floor... its almost funny.... except a little tragic I guess... in light of my notion that one of the greates lessons I have learned here is not to judge. Anyway... I dont think any of them are likely to read this... but for what its worth... I love you guys. I may not have spent as much time with some of you as I would have liked, but you made my life here better nonetheless. Adriel, Patrick, Jaime, Ernest, Erin, Megha, Michelle, Su, Jane, Jordana, Hillary, Andew, Vivek, Chris, Sam, Alex, Ziv, Connie, the polo girls, Alex and Keiko, Steve, Salman, Tristan, Susan, Lisa, and Fannie.... there... I dont think I missed anyone. I had the most wonderful floor ever.